9/12/2005

It's Friday. This morning I slept untill quite late. I woke up at around 9.30am. My plan to straighten my hair was spoiled as my dad didn't go out this morning. Then, I watched TV but Clement wanted to watch the other programme. I was angry at that time. But I did nothing to him. I didn't even scold him. I just, did nothing. At noon, I pindah my computer to my room. It was an absolutely tired work. Then, I slept. I almost bored to death today. Nothing to do. Everyday was just the same. And I miss my darling so much. And yet she didn't find me today. I felt so alone. At night, my teacher asked me out. I went out with her to a unknown karaoke. She drunk arak and I drunk cola. My darling called for several times and I was actually quite nervous because I scared she will scold me. In fact, she did become a bit unhappy and angry of me. I didn't know what to do. I just knew that I was sad tonight. I wanter cry. I wanted my darling. But seemed she was busy. Just now when she called me, I heard that she was online. MSN with friends. I was no longer important to her. She kept asking me to sleep. I thought, she didn't want me to disturb her. I even dared not tell her I online. I didn't on MSN. Just to avoid her. Sometimes, I was happy to see her online. But still, she couldn't accompany me. It really made me sad. It made me don't wanna online with her. As she couldn't accompany me. Last time, I tried to send her a message but what I got was a reply which made me cry. Maybe she cared for me. With another way to show it but I couldn't see that. It was my fault again. I shouldn't send her that message.